Mommin aint Easy…

I think being a mom isn’t for the faint of heart.  We need to play so many different roles like parent,teacher, cheerleader, disciplinarian, friend etc.  But, what role do you play when your kid is sick? You play the role you were meant to play Mommy!! Its taken over a week to write this,  how do I possibly put into words what I feel watching my baby go through something that she should never have to go through.  I know that a lot of other families are going through worse and I offer up lots of prayers!  Everyone goes through their own battles and struggles.  Just recently after many blood tests and an MRI we found out that lil Miss L has tendonitis (inflammation on her tendons)….it goes hand in hand with her Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis.

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She was diagnosed at just a year old just months after she started walking. I remember seeing this beautiful baby girl wake up in the morning with a smile on her face but not wanting to do something as simple as walking (an accomplishment that months earlier made her so happy to do).  After months and months of blood tests, x-ray’s and a doctor that told me I was crazy and my kid was “just fine”.  We finally got to a Rheumatologist that confirmed our fear.  Our baby has Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis, her little body is attacking itself.  How does this happen? Did I do something wrong? Could I have done something different? These are the crazy questions that I had going through my ever crowded mind.  Thankful to an amazing team of doctors and a few surgeries later my baby was in remission for 6 years.  I thought the testing was tough when she was just a baby, now its even crazier!! This little luv has undergone more blood tests, more MRI’s, excruciating pain in her knees and ankles, even hip popping and pain.  It’s crazy to me that her little body can wreak so much havoc.  All the while Miss L is dealing with this she has been the happiest, “go with the flow” girl I know.  Mom & Dad have been the Hot messes so far.  I truly believe that we are only given what we can handle, as Miss L’s mom I think she’s had enough for five lifetimes. But… she has handled  this with the grace, positivity, and strength that I have never seen.  I am so proud and blessed to be this girls mama!! I will be her biggest support and cheerleader through this!!  As  Mommy’s… WE CAN HANDLE THIS!!

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